It's funny. I consider myself a nihilist, because I don't think there is anything special about life or people. The universe doesn't care, there is no meaning, everything is subjective, always changing, and nothing matters.
So, I guess now is good time to do bad stuff, give up on life, have even more depression! But the funny thing is that, if nothing matters, then the fact that nothing matter shouldn't matter as well. So it just kinda anti-meme bombs itself (There is No Anti-memetics Division).
If I give into my nihilistic impulses, then I see that as me putting meaning into them, which contradicts the whole thing. So I cannot operate on the same frequency as my nihilistic beliefs. The only way that I can have any conversation, or do anything, is to accept that I must operate outside of it, that me as an identity shall not take nihilism as a basis for my actions or inactions.
So I as a human still look for meaning, and look for ways to be happy.